Tuesday, October 22, 2019

You Matter

A person finds joy in giving an apt reply— and how good is a timely word!
Proverbs 15:23 NIV

You Matter, comes to mind. It's a retrack I did about 2 years ago now. With all the negativity in the world, Cheryl Rice made up some cards with the phrase "You Matter" and began handing them out to everyone, the response was awesome. When we got the story, by just editing it for our 9 pm show, I was touched.  I ordered a bunch myself.  As I read and think, I'm amazed of how you true this is. That apt reply is so important, just a quick thank you or Hi especially when you know them. Now everyone's different, i understand that. As for me, I think i've only regretted it once ( because they really didn't want to anyone to see them). We are a hurting people that a simple gesture can change someones day.  Sometimes I just need to say hi. Telling someone they're doing great. And especially when they come to mind, check in on them. I feel like I'm a kid at times, why as an adult do I still need affirmation and kindness? Can't I provide my own affirmation and kindness and support. Usually I can spontaneously laugh with outbursts, actually that's how
I am. I'm just like Jim Carrey on Ace Ventura, hell pretty much all of his movies. Life without spontaneity is dull. That's the news actually, we can't predict anything. We get a plan together, but wow that can change. Thats what makes it fun. I love change, I hate structure, well for the most part. I can take it for a bit, but not always. And that's when i need to affirm people. Because in a media environment appreciation can easily slide right by and the day is done, when everyone kicked butt. Its amazing how good I feel about myself when i appreciate someone else. Time flys, the clock keeps ticking, I have to seize the moment. You Matter!!

Here's a link to the you matter card website

https://youmattermarathon.com/

Monday, October 21, 2019

Authentic Desire

I desire to do your will, my God; your law is within my heart.”
Psalm 40:8 NIV

Desire sticks out to me. Man do i have desires, and sometimes I have none and just seize the moment and do nothing. I was watching Christopher Robin the other day, (a sleeper movie). Doing alot of nothing often leads to the very best kind of something.  If you need a napping movie, this will warm you up to the point of passing you out. Similar things are old sci-fi movies, fantasia, and jackie. Sip some water, I read and think. my mind doesn't want to do his will, my heart does. My heart hurts alot these days. I was in a spiritual coma for most of my life until I had an emdr test (actually 5) and the Trauma I experienced at the age of 3 and 4 and into my youth was replaced with positive and inspirational thoughts. I'm not fixed but my authenticity is back, the struggles come and go. I feel I make things way to complicated and need to just chill.  Then why do i constantly battle God's word. Is it within my heart? Yes i know it, this isn't black and white. I think this is why David said he desired to God's will, because he did. As do i, however thats not always the case. David didn't always do God's will, but he desired too. Its hard, I struggle. Being a dad and husband, I've made countless mistakes.  I continually go by Yoda's philosophy " do or do not, there is not try". When Im at work, and editing something for whichever hour of news I am. I have to make sure its quality, things aren't too loud, not too soft, select a steady shot, no flashframes, make sure my edits are clean. I have to look at what I did, and then recut if its not right to script.

Hits me, I desire to do God's will, but i don't alot. i desire to have a great marriage. My desires good and bad will never leave. They will only grow. I just to need to put them through my God filter and see how He see's. Its a recalibration. Like resyncing the audio frequencies of a mic when you get somewhere else. Or recalibrating the drone (when I used to have it).  Like in Karate Kid 3 when Mr. Meyagi kept telling Daniel to refocus. At the end fight you could tell Daniel was scared, and Meyago yelled at him to focus and not have fear. Daniel did his yoga karate focus thing and won the fight. God knows I desire him, I just need to go with it in my the moment and not when its too late and I flop.