Sorry God, no way out of this one

“But you are not like that, for you are a chosen people. You are royal priests, a holy nation, God’s very own possession. As a result, you can show others the goodness of God, for he called you out of the darkness into his wonderful light.” 1 Peter 2:9 NLT

Do I forget who I really am? I don't really know what this is talking about. I'm amazed of how the things I have done in my life have made me who I am. I woke up with my family today, so I couldn't blog this morning. I'm currently trying to work on a video and taking a break. Thing the things that occur around me or to me, make me who I am, or they don't. I recall when I was in Jr. High and at camp, and so excited to be with other friends, I couldn't contain myself, I almost became someone else. My family had to take me aside and remind how I was acting. Or when I was at Bible School, being changed by God and then returning and to see so many people who hadn't changed. I'm reminded of all the movies where some cop won't help but then does. I think of Rambo and Cliffhanger. The stories always go, either the guy comes out of retirement, vacation, is fired, etc. very cliche, but we love it. I think of Hook and of Neo in the Matrix. Do I really need to be reminded.  I read and think. It drives me crazy when there's a definite need and people are present who can help but don't. I'm reminded of Bethany Hamilton's soul surfer story. Her friends motivated her to get back in the water. She had to be reminded of who she was. Man that happens to me alot. There's nothing worse than the feeling of not having a purpose in this life. Yet I forget or don't care a lot. I find myself learning day after day thinking that God is not the God I had in my head growing up. Hits me, I need to quit reminding God of who I say He is, and let Him show me who I am in Him and the frustration and confusion about how to live this life will make much more sense as He leads me on the way out of the darkness that I had no idea I was in.