Lost and Found

I appeal to you, dear brothers and sisters, by the authority of our Lord Jesus Christ, to live in harmony with each other. Let there be no divisions in the church. Rather, be of one mind, united in thought and purpose.” 1 Corinthians 1:10 NLT

Another living in harmony verse. Susan tells me, this subject is my theme, lol. Why? I don't know. Slept ok, last night, it was my brothers birthday and it was really nice to see him. When we both have families, we end up only seeing each other at those special occasions. I'm using my Lost Canyon mug this morning. It's a new mug, due to the old one that broke. I read and think. I'm reminded of the many church meetings I ran sound for back in the 90's. The little church I grew up in on Whitton Ave, was really messed up and we really didn't know it until the truth leaked out in the mid to late 90's. I was amazed of how many members who never came to church, showed up at the meetings, mainly old people (I didn't know they were still alive). It actually confused me (why do they care?).  The meetings confused me too. I'm also reminded of the Lost and found box. Probably because of my Lost Canyon mug. How many times have I been lost? When I was working in the hotels, I could tell when a guest was lost, and I would help them find their way. When I go to church, I couldn't really tell. I'm amazed of how lost I was back in those meeting days. How my priorities were just not there. Being an AV guy, I've been lost many times. I've lost count of how many marriages have broken, depression, pride, porn, anger, lust, adultery, idolatry, etc have happened to us operating in the booth. I've thought about developing a support group for us. We're under attack. I find I was living for God but dwelling on my insecurities not being secure. This prohibited me from being free. I read and think. I remember how during the meetings it appeared we were in competition with other church's on who was reaching out more. Later as I was listening to meetings on my grandpas reel to reel deck, I heard a meeting strictly on a concern of why they were losing kids in the Sunday School dept. I laughed. It was all about how we can grow. I keep on missing the first of half of this verse. Authority of our Lord Jesus Christ. Why don't I live in harmony with Him? I was just trying to find myself, not admitting I was lost. When I lose something in the condo, we eventually pray because only God knows where it is. He shows us where to find it. Hits me, no matter my calling, I have to admit I'm lost even if I've been saved by Grace. Forget the one time laying on of the hands to pray for the Holy Spirit to come in. I need that every day. I'll operate gear and make that service seamless so that every person can hear and see the message. But can I admit I'm lost and confused? Can I admit that I need to be found and only Jesus can find me? It's a tough battle. Only then will I be able to have harmony and love everyone and see them how He does. I didn't even know I was lost because I wasn't focused on the Him I was focused on me.